My belief about this life cycle that presented itself early on in my life was that I was supposed to embody motherhood . The fertility of my womb is not by chance . In the forefront of my mind I didn’t want to become a mother yet time and time again I subconsciously engaged in the manifestation of creating lives … I can look back and see the struggle I’ve had with children in this lifetime even at a young age . There was a deep angst about the decisions I’ve made (even as a child) about children…. My greatest lesson needed for my soul was to present itself in physical form not once but many times ….I was presented with the reality of motherhood. Regardless of the choices I’ve made along the way to slow down that process of becoming a mother . The position was already etched into my path my purpose .